I'M DONE WITH THIS SIMULATION

ADHD, Energy Vampires And Degenerate Animated Cats

Hello everyone! It is almost a miracle I finished writing this in time. This month’s newsletter does not really have a theme. It’s just me ranting about my life and sharing some photos with you guys. The whole year has been very weird for me, and I have this feeling that things will not get better. It is basically August as I’m writing this, and summer will be over soon, and I’m definitely not ready for another Lisbon winter.

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Not To Be Dramatic But…

I’m so sick and tired of this stupid simulation. I have been trying to change my ADHD medication for 3 years now (that was not a typo btw); dealing with the Portuguese government is like dealing with the energy vampire from the What We Do In The Shadows show. It is exhausting. In one week alone, I had 3 in-person interviews with psychologists, bureaucrats, and nurses. 2 of these could have been emails, and the third one was to answer questions that I have answered many times before. And even after all this process, I still don’t have access to the medication I need. So yeah, I had enough, and I want to get out of this simulation, please.

Business Is Bad Too

Business-wise, this summer has been terrible for me. Almost no clients, and maybe I’m wrong about that. The city feels very empty. When I walk around the city’s tourist areas, I see a lot of empty bars and restaurants, and sometimes they’re not as busy as they used to be. Maybe Lisbon’s tourism boom is over, or maybe I’m just overreacting because I’m not getting many clients. Who knows?

My Media Consumption In July

I’m proud to say that, once again, I didn't watch a single one of those FIFA games. I hate soccer! I did watch Odyssey, though. It was OK, a bit too long for my taste. But honestly, I had more fun watching The Invite than I thought I would. Very funny movie, and I loved how minimalist it is. But the best thing I watched in July without a doubt was this anime called Chainsmoker Cat. This is by far the most degenerate, gross, dirty, and funny piece of media I have watched in a long time. Every week when the episode ends, I think, ‘there is no way they are going to make it crazier than this,’ then the next episode comes out, and I am like, “yeah, they did it”. Chainsmoker Cat is not for everyone, but in my opinion, underneath all the degeneracy, it paints a great picture of addiction and mental health issues.

Thanks For Sticking Around

Sorry for all the complaining, but I’m still struggling with my mental health. Maybe I will get better when I start taking the right meds for my ADHD, and my mood will improve, but right now, his is the best I can do.

As usual, thanks for hangin’ until the end. Pet a cat if you can.

Gilby